Fuckin Dad

since i was small..

my houz was full of arguing..

not bcuz u drunk or wat..

juz bcuz of ur temper..

till im standard 3..u r still lk tat..

so v decided leave u..v move 2 other houz..

although it's kind of hard but v were very hapi..

since my mum had forgive u..

after sum times..ur bad temper appear again..

juz a simple thgs..u can go mad lk a crazy man..

stop it la pls..u almost 50years old..it will die fast u noe..

stop controllin us where v go..

v hv our own freedom..not lk u..stay at home all de time..

v hv $$..so can travel whr v lk..

dun stop my mum go travel 2 other countries wif her frens..

v r not using ur $$..v can earn by own..

even im not begging u 4 money oso..

u dun lk my mum's cousins is ur own problem..

dun act lk a crazy fellow can??

dun scold or beat ppl as u like..

v r not ur slave..!!

v can live better although without u..

even v can more happier..

dun thought u r very mighty after buying thgs 4 me..

its ur responsibility..but if u dun buy im ok too..

i doesn't mind it k??

u hv not pay 4 anythg since v were born..

even my sis continue her study 2 college..

u din pay anythg too...

is my mum..workin hard 2 earn tat lil $$..

not like u..juz nw hw 2 waste $$..

hw cum others' father can b so gud..

but my father..is lk SHIT..

i admit tat im not in accordance wif filial..

mayb i'll being punish by Yama when i die..

but i dun care..

CUZ IM REALLY HATE U..SINCE I WAS SMALL!!!!!

I FEEL ASHAMED OF IT!!!

Happy Deepavali

first..wish my Hindian frens Happy Deepavali..

enjoy urself well..

im juz stay at home..

cuz still hv de last paper-Chemistry..

de most scaring subject 4 me..

i dun understand it..but i dun wanna failed..

its a big shame 4 me..

no choice..nid 2 ask Vicky 2 teach me..

hope i can understand more n memorize it well^^

nw i onli noe tat in de last term exam..

i gt no.11 in my class n no.15 in de whole form4 students in my skul..

its not a gud news 4 me..

n my mum kept mumbling tat i had retrogressed d..

sorry la mummy..made u disappointed again..

i cant fight wif others..

cuz im reali lazy 2 study..but tis doesn't means tat i hate study..

i love it..i wanna u c i graduate in university..

i'll try my best..

i promise u..i gt a gud result in my SPM..

tis is my responsibility.. :)

holiday is cumin soon..

n i'll start my holiday on 3th Nov..

cuz i hv already finish my exam..

no nid go 4 skul anymore..

except 4 de urgent thgs..

5th Nov..goin 2 rebonding my hair again..

tis de 5th time..n de last time..

i wont keep it straight..look bore..

i wanna curl my hair..

9th Nov..my dear burfday..

still plannin wat pesent 4 him..

16th Nov..gt gatherin at 1U..

wif my primary skul's frens..

i miss them a lot..

finally gt chance 2 go out 2gether..

im lookin forward it..

seriously lack of $$ nw..

wat kind of method can earn $$ faster..

i nid it..

REALLY NID IT SOOO MUCH !!!!!!!!

Exam 'Month'

fuckin busy 4 de whole month..

cuz sitting on de last term exam nw..

its crazy rite??

hw cum exam can lastin 4 a month..

but it oso gud cuz hv more time 2 do revision..

its extremely tired 4 tis month..

not only nid 2 do revision..

still gt tuition..after tat nid 2 teach tution..

no choice cuz im lack of $$..

tis week is full of exam..

sej..pm..add mm..bio n physic..

avy subjects nid 2 memorize well..

especially sej..a thick book n nid 2 memorize till finish..

im reali mad..

wat de hell its talkin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n i had ady register at Cekap Tuition Centre..

hapi wif it cuz no nid stay at de rubbish tution centre anymore..

juz wasting my time..

but bcuz of de time matter..

so juz can learn physic n add mm at thr..

nvr mind la..

at least gt..n my teacher was very hapi when saw me go bac thr ^^..

i miss Cekap soo much..its teachers are reali awesome..

a lot of method u can learn tat wont bored u..

hope i can improve my result next year..

no more honey moon..

nid 2 b so serious cuz SPM is waitin me.. :)

我。。彻底崩溃了！！

该解释的。。我解释了。。

你要的结果。。由你决定。。

我不会在干涉你的东西。。

我忍了三天。。

阻止自己想你。。

阻止自己回忆我们的过去。。

直到今天。。我再也忍不住了。。

我忍不住伸出我的手机。。

拨了一通电话给你。。

可是你是没接的。。

我的眼泪在那一刻。。

好不听话的流了下来。。

使命地抹。。不想让蘑菇看见我这个样子。。

我直奔厕所。。眼泪好像泪泉般。。

怎么也停不了。。

我记得你这句话。。

“我做么要回你信息”。。

你知道这句话多刺吗？？

终觉得我是一厢情愿的爱你。。

第一次。。流了这么多泪水。。

我觉得自己好无辜。。无端端被责骂。。

我真的彻底的崩溃了。。！！！

才发现。。就算哭肿双眼。。

你也不会再管我，，对吗？？

Memories

its 11.30pm in de late night..

n its rainin outside..

n i still din felt any sleepy feelin..

mayb im reali missin u soo much..

mayb..i din receive ur night message yet..

mayb..u r still angry me..!!

im hearin a song..

顺其自然-黄小琥

i noe its a old song..

but i like it very much..

cuz it is really meaningfull..

its de lyric:

一份爱会出现裂痕

两个人都要负责任

有些成长 来自承认

我终于挣脱怨与恨

年轻总习惯去争论

要别人照我的剧本

满身伤痕

才知道悲哀是互不信任

不在乎的眼神

内心悄悄破损

在午夜的时分

被一个梦给拆穿没忘记那个人

我试着让生活变得清淡

对幸福或寂寞顺其自然

偶尔傻傻孤单

偶尔傻傻浪漫

不怕大喜大悲那么难负担

不想再背负太多期盼

对好奇或关心顺其自然

只是那点不安

只是那点心酸

总会忽然扩散

让心又累又茫然

一份爱会出现裂痕

两个人都要负责任

有些成长 来自承认

我终于挣脱怨与恨

年轻总习惯去争论

要别人照我的剧本

满身伤痕

才知道悲哀是互不信任

每一次记忆的翻腾

既美好也残忍

思念让旧情有余温

将我困在早应该要离开的空城

我试着让生活变得清淡

对幸福或寂寞顺其自然

偶尔傻傻孤单

偶尔傻傻浪漫

不怕大喜大悲那么难负担

不想再背负太多期盼

对好奇或关心顺其自然

只是那点不安

只是那点心酸

总会忽然扩散

让心又累又茫然

我试着让生活变得清淡

对幸福或寂寞顺其自然

偶尔傻傻孤单

偶尔傻傻浪漫

不怕大喜大悲那么难负担

不想再背负太多期盼

对好奇或关心顺其自然

只是那点不安

只是那点心酸

总会忽然扩散

让心又累又茫然

希望有人陪伴

suddenly..i flashed bac all our memories..

de 1st time v chat..v sms..n v couple..

it's awesome n i still love de feelin..

n de 1st time v arguin..n hw u soothe me bac..

de 1st time v hang out..de 1st time v havin meal wif each other..

n de 1st time..

u called me baby sweetly..

u hold me warmly..

u hug me tightly..

u kiss me lovely..

all of these memories..

it made me more sad..cuz avytime v arguin n said broke up..

i dunno whether is it hav another chance 2 love u again..

sometimes..u make me feel lk...

u'r not love me anymore..

im not as important as i thought..

i feel lk i juz a replacement..

i juz a small human in ur world..

but do u noe..??

u mean so much 4 me..

i cant live without u..

my heart is fuckin pain without u..

my world is fuckin uncolourful without u..

cuz no1 can replace u in my heart even 1 second..

i nid u all de time no matter whr i am..

I ♥ U

CCS ♥ MWL

BIBI ♥ BAOBEI

我没有变

你。。凭什么？？

说我变！！

我根本就没变。。

变的是你。。

对我就根本不在意。。

最生气的是。。

还没搞清楚事情。。

就一口气骂我。。

连解释的机会也不给。。

骂了无所谓。。

最后还要加句名言。。

拜托。。我是你女朋友。。

不是你的菜。。请你不要对我那么粗鲁。。

我也有自己的脾气。。

你是第一位。。对我口出狂言。。

我还可以冷静的对待。。

换作是别人。。我可以一巴掌扫过去！！

我不找你。。不代表不爱你。。

是因为我真得没错。。

如果我有错。。我可以跪地道歉。。

问题是我没有。。请停止诬赖我。。

我也有自己的尊严。。！！

U'R MAKIN ME FUCKIN MAD..!!!!!