Aint Gud

4 da moment..im juz gonna tell u..

tat i reali aint gud..

when i did de decision..

i keep askin myself..

is it a correct??
am i rite??

but at last..

i knew it..

i juz hurtin me n u..

im reali a selfish garl..

thought tat u will b hapi or more comfort when i leave u..

but tats false..

i knew u r sufferin too..

dear..

almost 5 years me wif u..

im reali appreciate tat u oways by my side 4 all da time..

a person tat oways carin me..

scoldin me when i do stg wrong..

yup..i knew u r juz wanna protect me..

from a stranger till v met each other..

every single moment v r stickin 2gether..

not willin 2 leave each other..

but 2day..

i made the worst decison in da whole life i live..

cryin..is tis reali a gud solution 2 make it better..

i dun think so..

but truthly..

i dun wan v suffer anymore..

being not-allowness from them..

talkin a lot of bad thg..

y dun v try 2 break 4 a while..

juz makin it as our 'exam'..

2 test whether v r tough..

but i failed 2 do tat..

im so sorry..

dear..

i love u 4 all de time..

missin u all de time..~~

family..

can u all stop controllin me..

im almost 16 years old..

i can do my own decision..

wat u all wanna me 2 do is gettin a gud result rite??

i did it..

i gt 7a in PMR..

wat u all wan rite nw??
r u all hapi seein me suffer lk tis..

i felt dissapointed when u all scoldin me..

tears kept roolin dwn..

i can promise u all..

although i couple wif him..

it oso wont affect my result..

i still can makin it better from b4..

y juz my dearest sis can understand me..

i felt dissapointed bout all tat stuff thgs~~

study..

hw cum i din understand 4 all de teacher teachin in skul..

bla bla bla all de time..

at last..

i din gt any knowledge..

i reali lk my class nw..

1st class..

4 Amanah..make me feel dignity..

only de subject tat made me nervous..

bio,chemist,physic,add mm,account..

actually wat im gonna b..

takin de 5 main subjects tat include all de thg..

lawyer??

my favourite ambition..

reali lk it..

but whr i gt da lotsa of $$..

doctor??

sorry..

i scared of bloody..

so i wanna gonna do after tis..

mayb business is most suitable 4 me..

juz mayb..~~

reali a lots of thg tat make me feel nervous..

hw gud tat u r by my side nw..

tryin 2 make me smile again..

but it impossible nw..

missin u rite nw..

would u??

or still blammin bout de stupid decision i made..

bibi..i love u..

a lot of memories pass by my mind..

hope can hug u tightly..kissin u lovely..~~

like tis song very much..

a song tat suitable 4 me..

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hs7lJZy6Ed4

a lovely song from leona lewis-a moment like this..

damn like it~~