I Wanna Cry

in tis moment rite nw..my heart is thinking bout u..

still rmb yesterday..da moment i hug u..i kiss u..n i cry..

u r askin me y..u looked so frightened..

i noe u was worrying me for few weeks..even a month..

dear..im gonna tell u..im alright..

juz let me cry 4 a while in ur bosom..

yup..juz 4 a while..n i'll bac 2 normal..

i'll promise u..~~

dear..da 1870 days wif u..

keep waitin 2000 days..its excited..

been waitin 4 long time..but nw..

it is cumin soon..juz 4 another 130 days..bout 4months..

haha..da 2000 days..muz b a memorable day..right???

chg topic..bout frenship..

mosquito..dunno whether u gt c tis post..but its ok..juz wan 2 tell stg..

i noe..u r da only daughter in ur houz..but..

its different at skul..pls..

v hv no need tolerate wif ur attitude..

ya..i noe..avy1 has their disposition..include myself..

bad temper..i noe..but i'll try 2 control it....

n mayb..u hv not treaten me as ur best fren..nvr mind..its ok..

but being a 'normal' fren wif u..juz wanna told u..~~

exam is cumin again..but tis time is a little bit chg..

without time table..gosh..when should i start 2 do revision..

our principle is a bit weird..doin stg tat wastin our time..

buletin la..assembly gt 'lucky draw' la..n wat else la..

pls la..u think our skul is international skul or wat??

juz a malay skul + a serious discipline problem..

dun think tat do stg can chg them..it wont..

u r juz make more ppl truant skul on avy Monday..~~

Celebration Of My 16th Burfday

23-7-2011..

celebrated my burfday in advance..

dear,mushroom,mosquito,mono boo,mario,min min + me were present..

v celebrate at 1Utama..

1st went 2 buy tickets-Hanna..

its quite okay..

de 1st movie tat made me wanna fall asleep..

havin our breakfast at Pasta Zan Mai..

da sushi was very delicious..in luv wif it..!!

lets take photos :>

Our 6M Group..best fren 4ever..~~

mosquito photographer...dun perasan ar..

a 'L' alphabet pendant at Poh Kong frm mummy...thx mum..~~

chocolate frm my dear..~~

da books tat i buy at MPH..再看一眼& Howl..~~

havin our lunch..a big jug of tea at Wong Kok..~~

sopo~~

taken by my dear..nice??

our hands^^

my dear wif me~~

thx dear n my buddies celebrate burfday wif me..

arguin b4 tis bcuz of sum misunderstanding..

but nw settle d..

23/7..im reali very hapi..

n i appreciate our frenship wif each other..

i luv u all..~~

5M Group >

M1: Moutain

M2: Mario

M3: Mono Boo

M4: Mushroom

M5: Mosquito

Report Card

yesterday...it should b a big day for me as a student..

but it wasn't..

'Hari Terbuka'..

for all those parents 2 cum n communicate wif our teacher..

understand wat r v doin in skul..

but de most important part..

was de result..

since i at secondary skul..

i gt no.1 in my class for all term in exam..

i felt so proud of it..

although im not at de 1st class..

but at least i in 1Cerdas..

i still rmb my teacher-Cik Rosnah..

guide me all de time..

when she saw i played wif CV..

she was very angry..

she advice me dun close wif them too much..

its not benefit me..

until i study in 2Bakti..

i rmb wat my BI teacher said when ready 2 gv bac us de result paper..

'tat was a ppl i thought she will gt high mark at tis term exam..

but she didnt..she made me disappointed..'

i noe she was talkin bout me..

i felt so embarrassed..i felt sad..i made my teacher felt dissapointed..

i couldn't bear 2 looked at her at tat time..

3Bakti..

avythg chg..

at de 2nd term exam..im not at de 1st again..

but i already realize it..

sori 4 makin my family felt disappointed at me again..

i had ntg 2 said..juz SORRY..

but luckily..i gt 7As in my PMR..

i almost cry out when i gt me result..

its unbelievable..i thought i juz gt below 5As..

i cant expect it too..

i felt hapi..n avythg runs smoothly..

i had enter in science streams at 2011..

although i felt stress nw..

avythg was confusing..but i'll try my best..

YES..I WILL..

~mY rEsUlt PapEr~

lastly..my holidays were finished...

is de time to face my result nw..

same as my expection..my result were terrify..

but i bear 2 face it nw..

cuz almost de whole class have bad result too..

same same la..haha..

mosquito would b de 1st at tis term exam..

a bit of surprise..but nvr mind la..

cuz she is reali terror..n de most important is she is not lk sum ppl..very proud..

wtf!!!

heard frm my mummy..tat u dun wanna study d..

i felt surprised when i heard tis..

keep askin myself is it true..

n y..god..tel me y..

y i have a cousin lk tat..

i felt embarrassed being ur cousin u noe..

a girl without education..

wat u wanna b when u grow up..

u r juz form 2..

dunno anythg..althoght de simplest mm..

u cant handle it too..

or u wanna b a waitress 4ever..

or find a wealthy husband n gt ready to marry..

pls la..think thoroughly b4 do stg...

dun make ur parents feel disappointed..

u r a gurl..so try 2 appreciate wat god had gv u..

"每个人都有叛逆期。。

但这并不代表你可以为所欲为。。

叛逆期是我们人生最重要的时期。。

一旦错了。。就回不去了。。

学会控制自己。。学会思考。。学会辨别是非。。

女性生存在这个世界上。。不能只靠男人。。

一旦长大拥有自己的事业。。

哪怕养不活自己。

如果真的那么讨厌读书。。

那你自己好好想想。。

没有一张像样的文凭。。

你要做什么？？？"

these paragraph is always poppin frm my mind when i felt loss n tired..

its absolutely rite..female gonna b independent..

mayb sum ppl think tat had gud education for wat..

i can ans u wif confidence..for our future..

mayb i cant gt gt result in my exam..but at least i gain knowledge frm it..

sum ppl can stupid till can wrote the words the end-the and..

wat english is tis???

juz a simple word..~~

holiday finished

hey guys..holidays is almost finish..

askin myself..wat de hell im doin in tis 2 weeks..

ntg..SUCKS..

holidays were damn boring la..

stay at home avyday..

can die anytime..~~

bac 2 topic..6/6/11..

i hang out wif my dear,mushroom,natasha,mario n mosquito..

1st go 2 buy tickets..

'INSIDIOUS' is a nice movie..

its talkin bout a boy's spirit was out from his body causes him in koma..

tis movie frightin me all de time..

n de scarf is used 2 cover my eyes..haha..

my 5th years anniversary present-Jay Chou Tour 2010..

cost rm100..

thx my dear sooo much..

im appreciate tat i hv u..

v r oways quarellin...i hate it u noe..

can v b hapi all de time without argue???

my mind is thinkin stg recently..

is bout HER..

is her choosing rite??

i noe tat it is none of my business..

but im pity of them..

is it a educated ppl muz match wif a educated ppl too??

i dun think so..

u r makin me think tat my choosing is fault..

but wat im gonna do nw??

im reali luv him n dun wish 2 leave him..

i rmb tat vicky said tat:'人成長到一個階段就會有不同的想法。。在這時候。。你就會發覺之前做的東西都很傻'..

im reali agree wif it..

since i bcum mature..

i noe wat can do n sum cant..

i noe it but..

im not mature in love..

tis is de conclusions after thinkin 4 few days..

mayb im not yet reach tat stage..

yup..mayb..~~

avy 1 is discusssin tat dooms day is cumin..

is it real??

is it will happen??

but i dun feel scare..

cuz avy 1 will die oso..

wat am i scarin for..

but im juz scare tat i cant c my dear anymore...!!

nw..im in love wif 1 song..

it is a meaningful song-Nobody's Perfect by Jessie J..

its reali absolutely rite..

in tis wide world..

nobody is perfect unless he is not a human..

sum 1 can b very beautiful..

but dun meant tat she can study well..

sum 1 can study well..

but oso dun meant tat they were beautiful or wat..!!

opening skul soon..

hw am i gonna bear 2 face de result..

im scare of it la..

hlp me!!!!!!!!

~holiday~

tis post had been delayed for few days..

nvr mind..ntg happen..

30/5 hang out 2 times square wif mushroom n her bro..

a damn hot day made me felt mad..

but lastly i bought a high heel shoes again..haha..

im shoe-addicted^^

rm80..its damn exp but i think its very nice..

damn luv it..

also bought a pencil case at 'hello planet'..

juz cost rm10 cuz gt half price..

reali cheap enuf..

i saw many domo were sold avywhr..

it is quite cute but i dun luv it..

ntg 2 do in holiday..

tuition..tuition..tuition too..

freakin boring..

6/6 cum faster pls...

i wanna date wif my dear..

our 5th years anniversary..

although its actual date is on 16/6..

but v nid 2 study so v decide 2 celebrate earlier..

dear..is ur feelin as hapi as i am..

been 5 years wif u..

althogh v always qrguin n broke up all de time..

but u noe tat im still luv u..~~

muacksssssssss~~

dun wanna open skul too fast..

cuz i dun bear 2 face my exam result..

i think my result was worse than b4..

not bcuz i din do revision..

is bcuz de ques were reali 'easy'..

till i can slp all de time when exam..hahaha...

nvr mind la..i had try my best all de time..

juz took it as a challenge..^^

~im okay~

好久没来这里打扫了

应该是说。。

当心情超级差的时候才来这里。。

我唯一的发泄天地。。

三天了。。

没和你信息，通电话。。

第一次。。

我没想到我尽然可以做到。。

原来。。

我对你的依赖性还蛮强的。。

不信息你。。

不代表我放弃你，不爱你。。

而是选择用另一种方式爱你。。

没有你的这几天。。

我很想你。。

大哭一场。。

一觉起来。。

又在想你了。。

可能你会觉得。。

和朋友每天出去玩哪会伤心。。

你错了。。

和他们去玩。。

为的就是不要再那么想你。。

这几天无时无刻都在想你在做什么。。

下雨了。。

怕你放工会淋湿。。

又在严重伤风。。

没有我在你身边。。

要学会好好照顾自己。。

不要让我担心。。

好吗？？

这几天爱上听这首歌。。

陈诗莉-没有你

也许歌词特别吸引我吧。。

‘没有你叫我宝贝，我连哭都不配。。没有你我该吻谁的嘴’

这句话说得对。。

没有你。。

我该怎样。。

比比。。贝贝好想你。。你呢？？

快考试了。。

什么都还没读。。

因为我根本一窍不通。。

chemist,biology,account

my gosh

reali confussing me..

cuz i din pay attention when teacher teaching..

but although i concentrate more..

i still failed 2 understand ..

not becuz im stupid..

it becuz of de teacher..

dunno hw 2 teach..

fuck man..

im still in a confuse condition..

is it i choose de wrong stream..

although its de best class..

pure science+acc+add mm class..

but..

m i hv de $$ 2 b a doctor or wat??

sum more i lack of $$ nw..

so..

wat should i gonna do??

my friend said dun decide it early yet..

wait till de spm result..

but i think its late d..

i nid 2 quickly finish my college life n work..

i nid 2 earn more $$..

tat is reali very important..

matriks university..

sv n me hv decide 2 b a pharmacist n study at thr..

but tis univ onli gv chance 2 malay..

except u gt a gud result..

but its impossible 4 me..

nid 2 score A in chemistry..

i better go 2 die..

haiz..

life is reali full of challenging..

n im dunno hw 2 solve it..

madam m..

pls la..

dun b annoyin so much la..

v edi hate u..

juz a nickname..

is it possible 2 made u angry till lk tat..

u say u had been ejek frm small till grow up..

omg..

wat a fuckin excuse..

im not 3 years old child la..

n pls behave ur attitude la..

n ur talkin style..

dun juz made other ppl hate u..

i noe u hv a lot of $$..

but no nid 2 show off..

n i noe u hv a slimmin body..

but no nid 2 laugh at me oso..

i noe im fat n short..

so??

fat n short cant stay at earth??

at least im look more young den u lo..

n dun oways show off u use hw expensive of de make up thgs la..

n say hw talent of ur make up skill..

shit..

i hate u more den ever..

dun oways pretend tat u r very beautiful in front of boy..

they say u r aunty la..

==

miss l..

v had been argued wif u 2 time..

is it our problem or wat??

dun cal de all boys cum scold my frens n thought tat v will scared..

pls la..

boys..

means ntg 2 me..

in my eyes..

they r juz gangster..

tat dunno hw 2 study..

dunno wat ever thgs..

juz noe hw 2 play n enjoy their life all de time..

sum times i think of them..

wat should they gonna b when grow up..

a worker??

or a business man??

haiz..

i felt pitied of them..

'前途渺茫'..

worse den me..

my dear bibi..

thinkin of u..

keep tellin myself tat its not worth 2 do tis..

but im reali luv u deeply..

sum times im reali wanna give up..

but i cant do tat..

been wif u 4 5years..

hw 2 give up easily..

i dunno whether u gt see tis post.

im juz gonna tel u..

no matter wat happen..

i will luv u 4ever..

CCS love MWL 4ever