Count Down

woohooo..time flies..
now..less than 1 month..i'll be sit on the SPM exam..
hmm..how to express my feeling now??
curious??nervous??or excited perhaps??
well..what to do now..is keeping on do the tons of past year questions..
hope that the real SPM is just same as those past year too..~~
for the trial exam..i didn't score too good and just managed to get 4 As..
others than that..haizzz..TERRIBLE..
and the most terrible is Add.mm and PAK..i failed the exam..SHIT!!!!!!
but luckily..my results are fulfil the entry enquirements of my food science course..
im really look forward with my college life after this..
what am i gonna to be??Maybe..really a food scientist that i wishing for soo long time..~~

Dear..sorry to say that..Im really fucking TERRIBLE and BARBAROUS..
I EXTREMELY hate myself u know??
why everytime i cant control myself and what's the point that my EQ is fucking low than others..
we just cant see each other about 2 weeks..and i keep arguing with u..
but u..tolerate me all the time without saying any bad words or even scolded me..
but i felt more angry because u didnt scold me at all..
dear..pls don't always tolerate and spoil me everytime can?
i'll be more happy if u scold me..
not because of i really like scolded by ppl but my attitude is more terrible than before..
Dear..i really appreciate so much that i get u..
and don't keep on said sorry after arguing..
actually im the wrong one..i'll be more guilty..~

2301..I

♥ u

The 17th Present from ♥ HIM ♥

well..long time didnt update my blog again..
kinda busy this few months..
but when i free..also don't have mood 2 write it..issh..


erm..for my 17th burfday..
i'll held my burfday party at my houz on 28/7..
already long time didn't held any party..
the last time was when im still 12 years old..~~


for this year burfday..already received 1 present..
it is the most meaningful present for me because it's from him...
♥ thanks dear...~~~


* always APPRECIATE what we get *

OVERWHELMING

wow..exam-ing time nw..
and it was juz past one week..
still gt 9 more days 2 suffering..

for this mid-term exam..no more expectation 2 gt A's..
the same sentences too..already try my best..
and this is always the excuse  4me..^^
it's all my problem and i can't blame anything..
juz because of my terrible attitude..
always do stg tat are very important on the last minutes..
and always blaming those reference books are very thick or wat..
PLS..my terrible attitude..run away frm me..

From now on..i really need 2 start doing my revision everyday..
except 4 Sunday..cuz it is my rest day and also family day..^^
no more excuses 4 me..time is going non-stop..
i hv no more time 2 prepare my dearest SPM..
but just try my best 2 do it and fight the target..
8 A's..will u belong 2 me..u better be mine..
if not..im going 2 be crazy..
without u..i can't do anything in my life anymore..
no more college life and graduate time..
i dun wanna stay at Sg Buloh 4ever..
i wan 2 go out from tis small town and break through the world..
and tis is wat I'm always hoping for..~~

on 5.5.12..celebrated Mother's Day wif my dearest mummy and sister..
mummy..thx 4 everything u gv me..
im appreciate it very much..
thx god..i hv a gud mum lk tis..
although sometimes i will reply defiantly 2 u..
Sorry 2 say tat..u'll know tat..
WE LOVE U VERY MUCH..MUMMY!!
                                                   
                                     having our breakfast at 鼎泰丰 @ e-curve..

Mummy-Linda..Sister-Janice
I ♥ U all 4ever

                                               
                                         2nd round..having lunch at Ichiban Boshi..
                                                    craving wif Sushi.. ^__^

Waiting

Im Waiting U..~~

好朋友？好姐妹？

好朋友？？

好姐妹？？

有事找我。。

没事就不管我。。

似乎一有她们就更加不理我。。

再次忍让。。

不过现在我真的看透了。。

友情。。呸。。算什么。。

我麦玮琳简直看透了。。！！！！！

U-Little Star

在那儿做工。。大概四个月了吧。。
认识了这班人类。。也四个多月了。。
从陌生的我们。。变成同事。。现在。。是无话不说的好朋友。。
我们认识的时间不长。。也只不过是短短的几个月。。
不过。。你们就像大姐姐。。
一起分享无聊东西。。一起分享快乐的事情。。~~


可是。。从下个星期开始。。
我们的补习社会少了一个人的踪影。。
那个人。。很可爱。。
瘦瘦矮矮。。不错的身材。。
一头飘香的头发。。到现在。。我依然记得那种香味。。
她给我的感觉。。很熟悉。。很亲切。。
让我很喜欢时常去逗她。。玩她。。
最近她身边多了一个bak kut teh。。
她的脸就总挂着笑容。。
‘你可以静静吗’ 。。
可不可以。。
让我还有机会去听这个句子。。
出自你的口。。
不想要你们离开。。因为。。我们会少了很多欢笑声。。
你们走了。。我们几时才能见面？？
一个月一次。。三个月一次？？
这样的话。。我们的感情会变淡吗？？
见面时。。还可以像现在这样吗？？
无所不谈。。还是。。只是以微笑带过？
不可能哀求你留下来。。
因为你有你的前途。。
我祝福你。。
谢素馨。。别傻了。。我们不会把你给忘了。。
我们会永远把你记住的。。
你要记得时常回来。。
别只顾着bak kut teh~~

* Friends..are really special...
some friends..although u know 4 long them..
but u not understand them at all..
it seems lk it was a plastic cover between us..
BUT..some friends..although juz know them 4 a short time..
they bring u lots of happiness.. 

our best memories..~~

Its All Gone~~

start from today..our friendship GONE~~

i really shocked when I gt the msg..

is it really u or wat??

i repeat read the msg again..

definitely..its not my eyes problem..

i very confirm tat 1 is u..~~

WTH are going on..

my tears almost drop at tat time..

u said...im the 1 tat making 2 of u change..

u said..i always hiding something and didn't tell u..

girl..do u know..

not everyone i can choose 2 burst out my feeling..

because i felt shame and senseless..

and u said..i dun rare 2 hv friends lk u all..

girl..u are wrong..i need u all very much..

juz sometime i choose 2 be silent..~~

maybe..we are not suit 2 be best friends..

our 5M group should break nw..

no more M1,M2 ,M3,M4 and M5..

u gt ur own friends and me too..

from this second..our relationship was gone..

thx 4 always bringing happiness for me..~~

My Beloved Colleagues~~

it been a long time i din update my blog.. cuz i hv no mood 2 write it..
 erm..wats my topic 2day??
 im still thinking actually.....

 since i worked at thr.. i know a lot friends..
 from a stranger..till nw..we can say we are best friends..
at least we can making jokes together..laugh together..
it is very happy..bcuz i thought tat we are juz colleagues.. but actually not..!!
 i cant said tat i very understand u all..
 but from my opinion..u are a person lk tat..

HUI LING- almost the head at there..we can die if without her..
but sometimes..she wont talk 2 us suddenly..
she's quite weird..but never mind.. she is also our driver..always fetch us go sana sini..~~

STAR STAR- gorilla..haha..i think she will beat me after saw the gorilla name..
im juz kidding..she is the 2nd head..
i like 2 tease her every time..cuz she is really a funny and optimist girl..
“你可以静静吗？”the sentence she always say when i tease her..haha~~

YOKE YIN- we seldom see each other..but she is also a very funny girl..
she can laugh non-stop..and i like her style calling my name..
Muack Muack..so sweet man~~

ENGINE CHONG- u all should know who im talking to..her other name is 'Da Ping'..
bcuz......is big enough..bigger than me..lose jor..T.T
before tis..we thought each other were very 'lansi'..
but nw..crazy till dunno hw 2 imagine it..~~

SWEET WAN- my best friend..i LOVE her very much..
becuz she's the 1..the most understand me.. and the 1 who most tolerate with my temper..
we know almost 12 years..it's for sure we had arguing before..
no matter wat happen b4..the important is.. i need her so much..
without her..i have no one tat can burst out my feeling..
except my dear and family..she's the 1..i need so much~~

JESSICAL LOW- our relationship very close too..
but tis fellow teach a lot of bad thgs..haha..jkjk~~

AH BII- a very clever girl..has a very dark skin too..
haha..i always treat her as slave.. sorry for being tat..u are juz like our younger sister..
so we all bully u..dun blame us ya~~

MING LOONG- a fucking fuuny guy.. but i HATE him very much..
always tease me.. WTF..am i owe u stg last lifetime..
y always bully me..T.T

 these are all my beloved colleagues..
"一些朋友。。认识久了。。反而让我觉得陌生。。
我感觉到你们很恐怖。。不再是以前的你们。。
你们两个完完全全变了。。我后悔认识你们。。
或许。。我们是朋友。。但。。好朋友。。 这三个字就免了。。
你们两个。。我们怕了。。 有时候想起你们。。我会留下眼泪。。
我觉得可惜。。 可能对你而言。。我这些朋友你不稀罕。。
你现在有你的朋友。。我也再容不下你们的谈话当中。。
我不在意。。谢谢~~

Happy CNY

CNY was already reached.. wish u all happy and gt many ang paos.. but the CNY of this year I was not happy at all.. because I'm just stayed at home like a fool.. WTF...and all my beloved friends were celebrated at their own home town.. so what am I gonna do at home.. watch TV..eat snacks..sleeping.. isshh..hope CNY quickly past away.. I want go 2 school.. its better stayed at hoem la..T.T

Start

now only my holiday was start..
although just left 1 week..
but it is enough for me..
im gonna spend it well..

Chinese New Year is coming..
I wan go shopping buy clothes la..pants la..shoes la..
but..I am not enough $$ yet..
waiting my salary..~~

2011 almost past..and 2012 is coming..
a brand new year for me..
don't have any wishes..
just hope that all of my families and u are healthy..
and the most important wishes..
gt at least 5 A's in my SPM..
hope that I can do it..~~

Christmas Eve

i miss the Christmas Eve of 2011..
it was a memorable day for me and u too..
i thought im just staying home like those past years..
but this year was different..
the 1st time..we celebrated Christmas together..
it was fucking good..
and the 1st time i went to ur house at night..
luckily ur mummy didn't scolded us..
hehehe..
I Love U..~~

dear..although we didn;t have car like others..
can go anywhere without worrying so much..
but..i think the most important is i can by ur side all the time..
don't try 2 always competes with others..
just do ur best..
I'll be with u no matter wat happens..~~~

Im Sorry Bout It

im feel sorry bout tat..
sorry for being tat..
maybe i had changed..
im not worth for u 2 love me anymore..
and i dunno wat the hell im thinking..
my brain is full of question marks..
SORRY..

wanna go out realx a while..
and something is hiding in my deep heart..
cant tell any people..
im seriously suffering..!!

the 1st time..
I cry because of u..
I feel suffering because of u..
I feel contradictory because of u..
I feel jealous when saw u playing with others..
I feel happy when u talk with me..
I feel nervous when I cant see u..
tats u..!!

10/12/11

well..already delayed my post almost 1 week..

because im really fucking busy recently..

so only can surf internet once a week..

so start the story now..

6.12.11>

of course a special day for me too..

im waiting for long time..

finally..it reached 2000 days..

it was really amazing..

we didn't celebrated it because we were very busy..

however..my dear..happy 2000 days..

it will gonna be another 3000 days right??

after been arguing for long time..

lastly..we knew that actually it was just wasting our time..

until now..we had already stop arguing..

some more we are very happy now..

dear..u had promise me that u won't let that things happen again..

thx for giving us the last chance..^^

3.12.11>

a gathering at 1u..with my primary besties..

they were 2 lil pei yee and yain tong..

although just 4 of us..

but we were extremely crazy..

especially when we flashed back those memories when we were still same class..

we watched 'You Are The Apple Of My Eye'..

i felt that this movie just quite okay only..

not as romantic or touch as i thought..

i want to buy the book..but searching for everywhere also cant gt it..

erm..guys..i had nothing to say..

but really feel happy because everyone of us still remember each other..

we still can chat happily and crazily without feeling a litter bit strangely..

I love u all..even after we all gt marry..

i will still remember u all..

曾经的我们。。是多么的疯狂。。

一起学习。。一起下课。。一起放学。。

就算吵架过。。也不曾讨厌对方。。

因为你们。。让我在小学生涯添上很多色彩。。

班上总充满欢笑声。。因为你们。。让我感觉很开心。。

交谈中不需要刻意讨好对方或怎样。。

也因为你们。。大家在最后一天的小学生涯。。

终于放下自己的面子。。泪流满脸。。

哭着拥抱。。哭着说再见。。哭着说：我们永远是好朋友。。

到今天。。还不能忘记当天的我们。。最后一刻的我们。。终于哭了。。！！

Zuen and Me :)

Pei Yee and Me :)

Sotong and Me :)

its me.. :)

10.12.11>

today..is my dearest M5 burrfday..

happy 16th burfday ya..

hope ur wishes come true..^^

你说，你累了

突然间。。你说。。你累了。。

也没以前那么爱我了。。

这突如其来的消息。。

要我怎么接受。。

你说做回朋友。。拜托。。

五年半的感情。。我真的做不到。。

我就是那么死缠烂打。。

我们之间的回忆。。你忘记了吗。。

不要说什么真的很累。。

不要给我借口好吗。。

T.T

juz now went 2 checked in tis link..
http://saps.moe.gov.my/ibubapa2/..
a link tat make me nervous when every time i click in..
and already knew tat i gt no.13 in class for the last term exam..
and gt no.15 in the whole Form4 students of my rubbish school..
its not a good news for me..
because my mummy keep scolding me..
keep competes my results with others'..
ya la..mummy..stop scolding me..
i know im stupid..i can gt good results..
sorry lo..but what can i do now..
i'll do more revision after tis..ok??
i promise gt at least 5As in my SPM..ok??
STOP SCOLDING ME LA..MY EARS ARE FUCKING PAIN!!!


im suffer from insomnia every night..
although i wake up at 8am and go 2 work..
really very tired but can't sleep at all..
im suffering so much..
thinking of the nonsense things every night when cant sleep..
almost crazy..!!
especially when i day off..i like 2 drink Nescafe when lunch time..
it make me more suffering...
my eyes are open widely althoghy it was already 2am..
haiz..insomnia..pls leave me away..gv back me a good night and a sweet dreams..~~

Profession

start working at Profession Tuition Centre today..
erm..wat to say??
im teaching the preschool students..
a fat boy..but he is very cute and chubby..
some more need 2 speak English with him..
its is not a big problem for me..
but the most worst is he didn't know any Chinese words..
after tuition class..they can have their lunch and bath..
and then continued the art class..
drawing a angry bird..isshh..boring..
because my students only 5 years old..
so they only coloured the helicopter by using crayon..
art class finished..its time 2 play..
'carrot jump'..the 1st time i knew tis game..
but it is kind of boring too..
almost 5.20pm only walk bac home..!!

i like the feeling walking along the road alone..
no people disturbs me..
and then turm my earphone volume until maximum..
im very crazy but i like the feeling..!!

i miss u so much..
im awaiting 7/12/11..
its our 2000 days..
16/12/11..its our 5 years and half anniversary..
i dun hope can gt anything from u..
im juz wanna stay wif u :-)

My Dearest Family

on 19.11.2011..

im attending my cousin wedding dinner..
it was located at Sin Choi Wah Lou..
almost 7.30pm onli we reached there though the invitation card was writing muz be attend punctually on 7pm..
when we reached there..still a lot of vacant position..
it means tat Chinese peoples are always late..^^
well..tis restaurant was newly open..
the decorations are very beautiful and luxurious..
just look like a palace..
and the foods are delicious too..not bad..!!

the outfit of tat day..the 2nd time wearing dress attending dinner..

and tis is me..no need introduce..im Kuroboo Mak..

on 20.11.2011..
a good day also..but i didn't have any date on tis day..
cuz i need 2 tuition..damn pity..T.T


im waiting SPM finish..then i can hang out with my buddies..
and no need worry bout the transport..
cuz Vicky already get her lesson..


it is so good having a own car..
but tis wont happen on me unless i working for 3/4 years..
no choice..because im born in a poor family..
but i appreciate i born in tis family..
although sometimes problems keep popping out..
“能够成为一家人。。是很多世修来的福”
i like tis sentence so much..
although i am poor..although other peoples despise me..although i don't have a good daddy like others..
but i have a good mummy..tat always worrying me..
she always working even Sunday..until her legs and hands are always pain..
she just want 2 earn more $$..for me 2 study in University or college..
she just want our life can be more happier and relax..!!

tis my beloved mummy..i love u..

tis my sis..Janice Mak..
juz graduated from TARC College..
working at Park Royal Hotel nw..
love her so much too..
although sometimes she bully me and really annoying..
but she's the one who teach me everything when i still small..
because mummy is busy working..
so she gonna teach me..
she treated me strict tat u cant imagine..
when i done wrong..
she will scold me angrily or used the rattan 2 beat me..
if without her..i'll become very naughty and rebel..
you are juz like a angel..
always helps me when im facing problems..^^


these my 2 lil brothers..

always bully me..

but also very dote on me too..

a photograph of my whole family..

I ♥ U ALL

Some1 Like U

well..im holiday-ing nw..

nothing do except eat and sleep..

already rebonding my hair..

it is not as straight as it is..nvr mind la..

cuz it was free..

keep on use MP oil juz 2 make it soft..!!

i hv start my tuition at Cekap already..

happy so much..cuz i can learn something new without wasting my time..

my Physics teacher-Mr Peeter..

he's a Indian guy but speak English well..

always make joke..i like his teaching method..

he will gave a lot of example when teaching until u really understand it..

then..my Add.MM teacher-Mr Chin..

same as my last last year Sn and MM teacher..

although he is strict..but he is nice too..

he'll gave some exercise paper 2 do after tuition class..

same as the various type of questions tat will appear on our SPM paper next year..

well..the 2nd time i tuition at there..

but still dun hv any frens..

mayb my look is so fierce till they not dare 2 chat wif me..T.T

but at least still gt a Indian gurl-Lagamai..

she is quite ok..but seldom chat wif her..!!

my tuiton frens' result were shocking me..

Add.MM can gt 91..WTH..sum more is a boy..

AWESOME..!!

not than 1 year..its my turn sit on SPM..

its different wif UPSR and PMR..

it will change your future once u gt ur result..

haiz..gonna start study nw..

gonna b serious next year..

no outing anymore..juz can study at home..

nvr mind la..

for my future 2 gt a better job..im really need 2 work hard for it..

i want gt at least 6As..no matter A+ or A-..

important is gt As..!!

tis term exam..10 subjects..

i only gt 5As..T.T

so bad..and Mosquito will be no.1 in tis term again..

Monoboo was already overstep me..

im really retrogress d..

wat my mum will say when she know my result??

it should be a war starting in my home..><

gt our report card on tomorrow..

but i didn't go..cuz mummy is busy working...

on Friday..can gt RM100 frm government..

tis 1 muz go..the 1st time government gave $$..

i wont let tis chance go away..

ibut the government is extremely stupid..

avy1 can gt..r u really gt problem??

y dun juz add the amount of our BSN students..

v really need the $$ 2 study in University or gt a car lessen..!!

Dear..Hapi Burfday..!!

9.11..is ur big day..

sorry cuz cant wishing u on de phone..

sorry again cuz cant celebrate wif u..

last sorry cuz cant gv present 4 u..

anyway..wishing u hapi burfday..

hope u all de best..

I ♥ U

keep on flash bac de thgs u told me yesterday..

n ask myself..am i really wanna give up u..

de main point is..am i b willing 2 do tat..

my tears kept rolling dwn..

wth..cry 4 wat..

broke up is not de dooms day...

i still can live rite??

but i really cant do tat..!!

8 / 11 / 11

i dun hv any rope..

so wont tie u anymore..

u gt ur own freedom..

u can go anywhr u like..

between me n freedom..

u choose de freedom..

thx 4 being honest...!!

dun said tat i restrain u all de time..

tis was just de way i care u..

if u dun like tis style..

sorry 4 being tat..!!

nvr mind..i'll find someone like u..!!

moro is ur burfday..

de first year..i din acc u 2 wait till 12a.m...

n wishing u hapi burfday..

do u noe..im waitin u..!!

no matter hw long time is it..

mayb im really a fool..

but no choice..

cuz im in love wif u so deep...!!